Replaceable

taking some pills
sick
going to sleep
still a bit upset


i refuse to talk about emotions to anyone except paper,
imnot having a good day.

save meeeeee



NIGHT

dim

should your other, as in partner, lover, soulmate, boyfriend, whatever you want to call them, know everything about you? even if its dark and dim. should they know? Or should you wait till they begin to ask about it, wait till you have to and even then not tell the whole story. Or should you come out with it all at one. Do they have a right to know it all. maybe it will help them to understand you, help overall. or, will it just make you weak, scare them off leaving you alone? i cant sleep and this is whats ragging my mind right now.what do you do with a dim past? You would want them to know every bit about you, the dark the light the stupid and the great. Thats how it should be right? i feel like it makes you weak and i cant get past that feeling.
its 3am.
bother me.

Gauges!!

ive been needing some new gauges for a while now, and i found two perfect pairs!! some lotus plugs and some emerald pinchers :] i love them <3 this site has a bunch of great body jewelry, and for some good prices too http://www.bodyartforms.com/index.asp Check it out :]
So been at the pool with the girls most weekends, corpus and austin next month!!!








im awesome, lol sexy face

"i need another reason why"

Dirt in the ground is what I need
I got another one to tell you
and another one to make you believe
pity in the grass tried to be
the one you needed when I told you
that you wanted something bigger than me

I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay
I said that I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay

'cause you are not alive
when I need you
I need it quickly
in case you never know

I can't play where I'm not supposed to anyway

dirt in the ground is what I see
I need another reason why
I need another reason, tell me to breathe
the dirtier the sound, the best I breathe
I tried to do it all for you
it didn't do anything for me

'cause I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay
I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay

and you and I will find
that when I need you
I need it quickly
in fact, you'll never know

I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay
I said that I've got friends in all the right places
I know what they want
and I know they don't want me to stay.


-i love this song, plus this band. so things are eh right now,calm. Nothing really big is happening this month, next month im going to corpus for five days and than Austin for four :] i cannot wait!!grandpa is not doing any better, unfortunately. i wish Harvest would open back up, i miss my butter scotch latte and spinach&cream cheese dumplings :p i miss them so bad haha. well, listen to the video
its awesome.

Hospis

hes dying
no turning back
hes on a one way road
theres no where to go
just forward
im like a camera
i watch, i hear
no movement
im full of fear
cause, theres nothing to be done
hes done
i see his ghost in his eyes
he knows, and he cries
years of age, wrinkled under his eyes,
the smell of war tainted his skin,
he always knew what would happen to him
hes still a kid at heart
no lies, this is a new start
but whats my part?
hang back, take a seat
watch this man, slowly be beat
death is on his lips
he can taste it
we smell it
theres no arguing it
you cant throw a fit
theres no one to hit
i cant believe that
this is it
hes forced to quit
here i stand
while hes thrown in the pit

better off

* well i have not written in forever, and think its about time to fall back into my notebook and put my thoughts down. So, here you go,enjoy! and yes i do realize i write somewhat sad poetry, but its what i like, you feel it better. :D




i try
i try to get by
the memory of you
is always in the corner of my eye
im hypnotized.
though, we said our good-byes, and
i almost died, i swear i died
my heart dropped
time stopped.
my voice was caught.
It all came over me at once,
that first smile
the first sigh
the first time you nervously said hi
fear trickled down your skin
but that was the moment, you were invited in.
thats ages ago,
now were smarter, now i know
that you should walk away
no matter how bad i loved you,
how bad i wanted you to stay.
i had to go,
were batter off this way.

i like what i like

i know what i want. Something to last forever and could never be doubted. Something that can make me laugh when i feel like dying and to joke with me on everything possible. Something, that gets me little jokes that no one ever could understand. Something to have a home with, one that overlooks a lake, or a city,with a veiw so wonderful,you'd never want to look away. I want sunshine in my arms when its dark and thundering outside. Give me your world,and ill give you mine.
you could wait for something forever and achieve nothing, make a move.

Let's go!

Well today has been a pretty good day:) went out for sushi, went to the pool to tan for a bit, stopped by target for some things just got back from running and about to go to Alexs house to watch me some starwars! Cause I'm a dork :) god I'm starving lol and just waiting on alex to get here already, so I'm watching law and order svu and it's awesome haha I can seriously watch this show all day it's my favorite.I'm missing a certain someone right now :/ I don't like missing people,but jeez I can't help it lol.
Well I'm off to quote starwars


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Morning!

It's morning and I'm starving lol going out today for a bit, I need me some coffee and pancakes :) sounds yummy. Btw loving my itouch lots lol. Well that's it I'm going to search for food :p lol



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iTouch!!

Well I got my itouch today! And wow I love it :) so I went from the first generation iPod to an itouch,it's awesome!! I'm even updating my blog from it right now haha.work was long and boring today it was murder lol luckily a only work four hours tomorrow so I'm going to get a pedi :)



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i break habits just o fall in love

well there some good music to hear! Neon Trees, pretty awesome, i just started to listen to the and im loving then, great for long rides in cars too lol.i think ill make a playlist of good tunes and post it. any band suggestions?

is this it?

not getting what i want is aggravating lol,
here some good music, The Strokes
and pics cause im bored :]

i can hardly dream, i can hardly sleep

So ive been a bit busy, but only a bit. Got all B's on my finals! so summer with no classes just work on weekends, its not all that bad. Going to austin in july for a couple of days with my friends, i cant wait cause i havent been yet!And maybe corpus in june for a weekend i hope<3 Going tanning tomorrow! i like being darkish lol. so its storming right now, i cant sleep -_- and theres nothin that good to watch, oh! i just got an iTouch :] 32GB
much love, enjoy the pics

are you tired of being alone, are you tired of being alone now?

updateingness.

its been a little busy lately, school/finals/studying and work mainly, today was soooo freaking hot!! got some school loan shit done today, went shoppin :] I got that black dress up there, ty-dye shirt and some wedges ;] and omg they are so comfy!! god, all i want to do right now is go the the pool, swim a little, have a beer and get a bit of a tan :p my grandpa is irrevocably sick, but is well, as comfortable as possible right now. oh! and my sister is pregnant,again.

i need to move out, save me please <3