I'm tired of trying, and i'm tired of trying to have faith in something, in everything and anything. Every event in life seems like a memory of dejavu, clouded but happening over and over. Same faces, same actions, same people. I'm not an affectionate being, i don't like talking about how i "really" feel but it stems from the fact that i hardly ever do feel. i try, i do but it dose not work. I think things over, whatever the situation, and i get past it, i make myself realize that this (whatever it is) was bound to happen. "What goes up, must come down", i think that is the best way to put it. And when its up, its pretty great, nice view, the air is clean and you have that weird but great no gravity feeling in your stomach. And when its down, which its bound to eventually be, you just close your eyes, take a breathe and hope that landing wont sting as much. Don't worry, after a while you hardly feel anything.
Then all that's left to do is slip off into dreamland.